Day 29

27 July 2008
0745
Hostel room

I did it! I went to Disneyland all by myself. Granted, I took a tour so it was the easier route, but I’d never had done that on my own if I were still in good, tolerable terms with them. But I’ve always I went on this trip purely for Disneyland, and I’m glad I didn’t let my dependency and fear of being alone stop me from doing what I want.

Yesterday, it was somewhat of a long wait before I finally reached Disneyland; around late morning, almost noon actually. In my mind it’s late but in truth it was more than enough because I was ready to drop off by dinnertime! I couldn’t because the bus only came at 9.45, after the closing fireworks.

Was it lonely roaming around a place teeming with people who came with friends or family, everyone except me? it was; I wished Ally could’ve been with me because she’s so good with me when I’m tired or cranky. But I did enjoy myself. The shows were amazing, though the rides are tamer than I expected. They’re still very good, though.

Even though I was lonely, there were parts of that I appreciated. First, I get to do whatever I want whenever I want. Second, I didn’t have to look out for friends or be afraid I’ll get separated from them in the crowd. Third, because I’m mentally prepared to do this alone, I actually enjoyed myself, to a level.

I was exhausted by the time the bus picked us up. I had to fight sleepiness and nausea all the way home. I reached the hostel at almost 1am. So tired, I didn’t even wash my face or brush my teeth. Just changed and dropped!

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